| scoolteachr |
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OMG!!! THAT'S CRAZY!! |
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| monskii |
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Help us LORD!!!! |
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| Ruckus |
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jeezum |
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top 10 grins |
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| GoldLaceGossip |
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Now if only AuroratheGoddes would be next |
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| Dreama17 |
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are you serious |
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| ThaMatchmaker |
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That's sad...I'm sure he was planning this anyway...he probably wanted people to watch him do it. SICK!!!
Register to my new dating website, it's free to join!! Don't be alone for tha 2009! |
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| pinkprincess |
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RIP MAN. |
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| darealwifey |
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The people who taunted that man on that forum have blood on their hands. The anonymity of the Internet lets us all (me included) do and say ridiculous things. Instead of getting him help, they watched. That's f***ed up. R.I.P. |
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| covergyrl |
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this is sad!!! |
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| tn_femme |
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SMH...that is so sad. |
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| scoolteachr |
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OH MY GAW.... WAS I REALLY FIRST. NOW I CAN GO BACK TO TEACHING THE KIDS!!! JUST KIDDING!!!! NO..REALLY |
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| juju562 |
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SMFH!! |
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| MsNevaTheDiva |
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That's despicable...who would allow, let alone TAUNT, someone to do that???!!? WTF is wrong with people nowadays??? RIP Man.... |
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| highyella |
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WOW!!! I don't understand why people are so evil. To taunt someone that says they're going to kill themself is beyond me.
May GOD rest your soul sweetheart. No more torture from the living, sick a$$holes. |
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http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/world/us_and_americas/article5196441.ece
Cyber bullying? Are these people serious!? Parents, pay better attention to you children! |
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.....that's messed up.....messed up world we live in.....smh.....this world needs Jesus for real.....(sigh)..... |
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| Misses24 |
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SMH. |
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| RedDevi |
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I thought we were past the days of Kitty Geravase and this is worse. People taunting others to die? How sick can we be? |
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| NVDdark1 |
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weak minded people give up, still sad tho |
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| lowerlevel82 |
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thats some crazy sh!t |
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| Blue_Flame |
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This is no shocker. This world is full of soulless azzholes. There are plenty of posters on MTO that would do the same thing. Ppl don't give a damn. |
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| Drac |
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To anyone thinking about this sh!t, IT AIN'T THAT DAMN SERIOUS!!!!!
Tracylee where you at??? |
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| TexasGlamourChic |
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Damn that's crazy....he had to have had some serious issues if he went online broadcasting that type of behavior in the first place tho. There was a guy that said he was having suicidal thoughts on a blog I visit and we were all telling him it wasn't worth it and to reconsider. He was obviously on a blog full of [EXPLETIVE], just like this one....I bet if someone came on here and posted some sh*t like that some people would post hateful comments. |
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| TexasGlamourChic |
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*behavior (azzholes) |
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Not surprising - people are MEAN and Heartless, especially when you cant see them face to face. |
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very sad.
he would have done it anyhow even if he wasn't online. |
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| mythangBIG |
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| MissDaniBaby2 |
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YO, THAT IS CRAAAZZZYYY.
I FEEL SORRY FOR THIS YOUNG KAT. PEOPLE ARE SO CRUEL.
RIP. |
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| Blue_Flame |
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@Drac
That's a good question, where is TracyLee? LilHairDreads better not say sh1t on this post, this is just the kind of azzhole that does this sh1t. |
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| Blue_Flame |
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Btw, who has time to make multiple accounts just to taunt other posters on MTO, err'body get some bizness! You're making them infamous while you remain nameless. |
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man some ppl take the internet wayyy too seriously. I mean, there's a world out there! There's air outside to breathe, things to do, life to live. Get out and appreciate what the good Lord has given you. And if you having problems, SEEK HELP! There is never any reson to kill yourself. I don't care how hard your problems may be. I don't feel sorry for anyone in this situation. Just wish he would have took a second though. RIP |
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| MoNeezy |
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I AGREE WITH DAREALWIFEY. SOMEONE IN THAT CONDITION NEEDS HELP NOT ENCOURAGEMENT TO DO IT. |
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| DivaTV_BayArea |
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wow...anyway, whats for breakfast?? |
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| Cincinamon |
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...that's the kind of stuff that happens to:
1) weak minded people
2) weak mind people who after they post, go back to read the rest and argue back and forth with someone who most probably is sitting behind the computer with one eye in the middle of their forehead and a wooden leg and can't kick your @$$ anyways... |
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| RWTHUMMINGBIRD |
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Wow. I heard that similar situations have been going on like this in Japan for years.... |
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| nubianqueen103 |
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I can't believe that people actually watched this video for 7 hours and watched this boy die! They need to be charged with accessory!! |
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| Eb0nee |
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That's just sad... |
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| donthateonthegreat |
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This just so sad and hearbreaking! I've heard of stories like this before and I just wish that if someone was having serious problems that they go get some help or talk to someone that you actually KNOW instead of trying to confide in a bunch of strangers in a forum on a message board!!! These people on here will say any and everything, it's definitely not the place to take seriously!!!! This is just too disturbing... |
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| RallyVincent |
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This is just plain wrong. @OreoHearts, Blue_flame, Cicin, I completly agree with ya'll. The world is a messed up place, the only place is worse is hell. |
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I can't believe they had viewers actually watching a man kill himself. That is heartless and truly shows that the viewers are disconnected to emotions. If I saw something like that I would have got in contact with the company and alert them of their viewer. They did all of that too little too late. I hope they can trace which viewers watched and get all of them. You never know....what you do or say to people does affect them, rather it be postivie or negative. Some don't have the tough skin needed to survive. They are broken and need help and it's sad 2 say but many go to the wrong sources for help. More and more each day the world or rather the people that fill it are becoming cold, souless, inhuman. |
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| ivey |
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THIS MAKES NO DAMN SENSE
BROKE MY HEART. |
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| WomanofGOD |
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R.I.P. That is so sad!! |
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| badbabyd |
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thtz jus stupid....y u wanna go kill urslf cuz ppl taunt u to do it.....r u tht dumb...omfg
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| Illinoi_boi |
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That's simply inhumane and heartless, so I wonder if the viewers will be as entertained when Karma strikes them in a viscious way. |
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| 69delicious69 |
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Suicide is serious to me. Wow, what is this world coming too? |
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This is so incredibly sad, but unfortunately, so many people make factual judgments about themselves based on words on a screen from people they do not even know. Someone left this young man a long time ago, the bloggers were wrong, no doubt, but where were his loved ones? |
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So are they going to put the people from the chat room on trial like they did the lady in the MySpace hoax? You know his family is going to say the people in the chat room "caused" their son to take his life. |
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| 7lady |
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so sad. im sorry to bring race in this but i bet these were young white males taunting. i dont know why but they seem to be the most dangerous evil group of people on this earth.
have you ever read the venomous things they say on y0u t ube?
so sad for this young man to have taken his own life. cruel evil people walk amongst us. |
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| hotbunny |
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What is the backstory? Was he depressed, gay and afraid to come out, did his parents go through a bad divorce? These young children have so many issues to deal with these days.
Bless his little suicidal heart. I thought about suicided at one point in life, but after working with a suicide hotline, I knew that there was more to life, what's unfortunate is that some people are not as strong as others, and people are so darned judgmental, so what your nephew is gay, love him anyway. I find that "christians" are the most judgmental. |
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Thats so sad! |
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| haynesbustit |
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SO SAD!!! RIP LIL DUDE!! |
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| divineforJay |
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Here is his myspace page
http://www.myspace.com/forgettingthepastagain |
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| Dre7Guevara |
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2 factors played a role in this sad situation taking place: 1) the ignoramuses who taunted this poor soul. 2) the poor soul allowing a bunch of idiots 2 push him 2 the point of suicide, I wonder if those fools even feel good about what they've done. |
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Poor thing. Must have been sick. There are lots of people out there who are depressed and need help but don't get it. My condolenses to his family. |
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""so sad. im sorry to bring race in this but i bet these were young white males taunting. i dont know why but they seem to be the most dangerous evil group of people on this earth"""
Hotbunny...How does it feel to be so stupid that it is beyond repair? Like, someone could take you and spend their time doing nothing but attempting to make you intelligent, and it would literally have no effect on someone as ignorant as you.
White males, dangerous? Hysterical, why dont you venture on down to the hood where your 9 year old black kids are selling drugs and carrying guns...Now, be a good idiot and go play in traffic. |
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@ showtime629
TRY AGAIN, YOU FAIL! |
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| NotRippedYet |
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I love how the article leaves out half the facts about this kid.
How about a little truth:
He had made a dozen posts over the last few months pretending to pull hoaxes including faking suicide and being homeless to gain attention.
The title of the thread he started was I'm going to OD *AGAIN* and he took a bunch of pills with alcohol AS SOON AS he started the thread and the stream.
The only reason the cops and EMTs found him is because people at the forum took the time to track down his personal information that noone had, track down his myspace and call the authorities (several users even called Florida from the UK). |
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The description of the thread is completely misleading.
The original thread was nothing like what was stated in this video's description. Maybe out of the 20+ pages on the first page AT MOST, there were maybe a couple actually egging him on here and there, while the majority of people just not caring, since he did do it lots of times before.
And whoever brought race to this, please be quiet. You don't know how many white people actually have sympathy and care for him on the forum. I am black, mind you. |
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| IMSONEGATIVE |
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THIS IS SOME [EXPLETIVE] UP [EXPLETIVE] RIGHT HERE! (SHAKIN MY HEAD) |
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| Supesitis |
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One person from India at that put in the effort to find his personal info stop with that bullshit. and plenty of people egged him on. At least 1 called his phone and told him 'do it [EXPLETIVE]' |
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@IVEY,
wassup? |
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| spongethong |
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This is so sad that those people on that site still think it was cool to nag him on! They just don't grasp the fact that that young man was crying out for help. Someone to talk him out of it,not push him over the edge. Someone on there said "I guess it's sad to really see him do it for once.I was really getting tired of him talking about it for months on this thread." I mean how low can the human race really go! This sh*t is f**king ridiculous! |
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OMG!!! this is crazy. That's like that movie... Where the killer video takes his victim on the internet while viewers watch him kill his victims. I forgot the name of it. But people or crazy these days. |
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| PUSSYCATFUN |
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| Lockstress |
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Uh...no one-person or people can make you kill yourself. He had the choice and CHOSE to kill himself. I wonder if they are going to track down the "taunters" and bring charges for inciting the act? Can they?? Does anyone know? |
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Such a shame what this world has come to. I'm sure this man was sick to begin with and I'm sure he needed help long before this even occurred. But, what a shame that people find joy and pleasure in taunting someone else. Where was his family? How could they not notice that he was sick and crying out for attention. People think that this is a joke, but life is cruel and the way that people live is cynical. Everyone is battling some kind of demon within themselves and with this economy. It can bring you to your knees. Now, this man's family has to bury this poor young boy before the holidays, all because some people thought it would be funny to watch him kill himself. Maybe they didn't think that he'd really do it, and when they realized that he wasn't playing, it was too late. Either way, we need to find other things to do with our time. |
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| iHEART |
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I just looked at his myspace page
(http://www.myspace.com/forgettingthepastagain)
and unless I missed something, (besides his URL address) I didn't see anything that would incinuate that he was depressed (more than the usual teenager) or unhappy. In fact, he seemed quite happy.
Maybe I had the wrong page? Hopefully, this is a hoax, but I don't think so. |
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| masterteacher |
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| esotericdredz |
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This is such a sad story....
The lack of compassion of the people on that message board was shocking...Just a damn shame |
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| obamaluva |
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That's so sad.... i don't see why ppl would taunt him, obviously he's not at his most stable point. It's just sad to see his body just laying there.... I wonder how these people feel now, at the end of the day is this wat they really wanted??
R.I.P
President Obama!!
1.20.09 The End of an ERROR!! |
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| JaeCe |
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Get right with GOD. The devil is a master manipulator.... |
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| Slickly_Swift |
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i am a member of that forum and just missed it. R.I.P Candyjunkie |
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| TexasGlamourChic |
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Here are his last words....I don't know what was said afterwards but this was the last thing he said:
Bodybuilding.com Forums
MySpace.com - Mr. Biggsâ„¢ - 19 - Male - Living it up in, Florida - www.myspace.com/forgettingthepastagain
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fT-_K...12241&posted=1
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Here is is fair well note:
The Note
To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
ed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
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just so you guys know, he was taunted after the fact. supposedly, he already took the pills and just taped himself, so taunting him wouldnt have made a difference (not that im justifing their actions) |
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| Foxy90210 |
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This is y I stay close to my daughther and keep her in church!! this is ths saddest ish I've ever seen in my life! LORD HELP US PLEASE!!!! WE NEED YOU MORE NOW THEN EVER... |
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| polkadotskin |
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It's always sad when someone dies or kills themself. Killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It's not worth it. I pray for God's comfort for his family. |
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| Blaxican |
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| Bulletproof_Loafers |
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I've said it before; these forums bring out the worst in people. All of a sudden everybody's a tough guy behind a keyboard. People say things they would never say in real life and become bullies. Its almost like when the weakest person you've encountered in high school becomes a cop and beats down innocent people on a regular basis. The anonymity turns punks into super thugs. Just like in the streets, the loudest or the ones that talk the toughest are the weakest ones when ish gets poppin. |
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| Dreayonn |
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Man anyone who would encourage another human being to commit suicide is heartless & evil. Yes those people are evil but I can’t blame them 100% either since the 19 year old continued visiting the site. He should’ve been gettin therapy instead entertaining all those negative comments everyday. Sad! May he rest in peace. |
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It's happened before, it'll happen again. Especially on sites like somethingawful.com or bodybuilding.com or 4chan.org where people assume everyone is a troll (because most of the time they are trolls).
He may be nominated for a Darwin Award. |
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| 2sexy4sho2 |
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| SimpLee05 |
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| CP3_Lady |
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peer pressure ain't no joke |
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| 85Bears |
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Damn, that's pretty sad. Hard to know when people are joking in the e-world. Had he just hung on one more day, things may have turned around. |
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| cater2dahaters |
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Okay- I know tha I am going to experience a serious "backlash" for this....but if you are that weak-minded.....you may as well.
I have no sympathy for peopel that just "give up." Life is hard, a lot of times it is an uphill battle, but there is triumph in being able to look back and say, "that was hard. There were times when I thought that I wouldnt make it. There were times when I'd have rather quit. But I made it through that, and I am just fine."
He left that letter because he wanted people to feel sorry for him, and have the same convos they are having now. "I have a job but I'm always broke"- well, so are a lot of us, and some of us are layed off with 3 kids to feed, a mortgage, a car payment, gas & electric, and some more stuff to pay. Does that give us an excuse to just be plain selfish and kill ourselves? No!
Anyway, I'll stop ranting. But just me, if I knew him, I wouldnt even show up to his damn funeral. If he really "loved" and "cared" for his family, and didnt want to "hurt them" like he said, he'd have selflessly stayed alive just for them. He took the cowards way out, and I cant respect that.
Sorry.
Just being honest. |
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| huhduh10 |
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sad but look on the brite side of things , he could have taken many more with him , just saying
damn even i have some problems , but i just can't see my son's living with out me .. |
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| huhduh10 |
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cater2dahaters
girl he knew what he wanted to do .
a wild back some crazy chick fr ANTM tried to kill her self.i sad go ahead then and the world came at me for saying that
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what was the point of killing him self.people just need to chill the [EXPLETIVE] out and read a boook im not say that the people that told him to do it are not wrong but if i told u to jump off a brige would you do it.....no
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That poor guy. I wished he could have gotten help. Some people just don't care about others. They taunted him.
Here's his letter:
To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying" |
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This is so awful...And sad that people would taunt him to do such a thing... |
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So sad! May he rest in peace. And @ the caption..."Here's the video of police busting in and catching him" I mean really! Catch him doing what? Die?! SMDH |
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that's really [EXPLETIVE] up. It doesn't pay you to chat with stupid people on forums |
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I COULDN'T EVEN WATCH THE VIDEO....WOOOOOW!!!!!
IT IS SOME SICK AZZ PPL IN THIS EARTH.
ONCE A PERSON MAKES UP THEIR MIND TO COMMIT SUICIDE, THEY ARE GONNA DO IT NO MATTER WHAT, WITH HIM DOIN THIS ON LINE IS SOME KIND OF CONTROL/POWER THING ON HIM, NOT TRYIN TO DISS, BUT IT WAS LIKE HE WANTED PPL TO WATCH, POSSIBLY THINKING SOMEBODY MAY TRY TO TALK HIM OUT OF DOIN THIS AND/OR CALLIN THE AUTHORITIES TO STOP HIM SOMEHOW, BUT SOME SICK BASTARDS WANTED TO ACTUALLY WATCH THIS HUMAN BEING TAKE HIS LAST BREATH. JESUS!!! |
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THIS IS HOW YOU KNOW THE WORLD IS ENDING...BABIES HAVING BABIES, PEOPLE KILLING EACH OTHER OVER A DIRTY LOOK, THE ECONOMY IN THE SH*TTER, AND PEOPLE ENCOURAGING OTHERS TO TAKE THEIR LIFE...SMDH |
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This is sad, he needed HELP :( |
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speechless, he was very depressed |
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| seaki |
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god dont like ugly,...and he aint to crazy about pretty eaither,..each and everyone gon' get whats coming to them, mark my word |
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@cater2dahaters
Don't think that all suicidal people are selfish. If you read the note, he said he felt like an azzhole and a disappointment. He probably felt like he was doing his loved ones a favor because that's how little he thought of himself. If somebody takes their own life there is something seriously wrong with their mental state, we are all programmed to win. Be thankful you have the strength to go on in bad situations, but don't be so quick to judge. |
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I REALLY wish I hadn't watched that... I feel so very sorry for him. I can only imagine what kind of pain he must have been feeling to end it all this way.
That is some mother's child lying there dead for all the world to see, and it's a sad, sad thing. |
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R.I.P May God bless your soul. |
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I wish this madness would end. Rest in peace. |
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I have to agree with cater2dahaters. Committing suicide is such a selfish act. I feel bad,but for his family. They're the ones that are gonna have to live with what he did to himself |
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OMG THAT IS THE SADDEST THING I EVER HEARD. THAT IS JUST WRONG. |
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Man i feel so so bad ..Im sorry but a MF couldnt tell me 2 kill myself and over the net 2 people are sick and need jesus 4 real .. |
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1) DUMB 2) A$$ |
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BUT THIS JUST GOES TO SHOW YOU HOW HEARTLESS AND IGNORANT PEOPLE ARE. THE GUY OBVIUOSLY WAS IN A DESPARATE NEED OF A FRIEND OR SOMEONE TO JUST TELL HIM IT WOULD BE OKAY..BUT YOU GOT THESE DUMB ASS KIDS AND ASS-WIPES WHO ARE MISERABLE PHUCKS THEMSELVES...THEY HAVE NOTHING GOOD IN THIER LIFE OR THIER EYES AND THEY PUSH THIER MISERY OFF ON OTHERS. I WENT TO ONE SITE EBONYCITYFORUM AND THEY
WERE REALLU UGLY TO ME CAUSE THEY DIDN'T AGREE WITH MY COMMENTS...AND FRANKLY I DON"T GIVE A PHUCK WHAT A BITCH THINK OF ME OR MY COMMENTS CAUSE THEY ARE MY OPINIONS PERIOD!!!!! BUT IT JUST GOES TO SHOW YOU SOME PEOPLE ARE NOT AS STRONG AS OTHERS....I SAY THIS ALL THE TIME PEOPLE.... |
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Tell me why the cop had a gun drawn? I'm just saying, ol' boy obviously wasn't moving |
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I refused to watch the video. I've seen one to many suicidal videos and they stay haunting me. It's sad when one feels their only option is death. R.I.P. my dude. |
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He obviously had some mental issues in the first place. However, for asinine people to taunt him speaks about their own deviant characters. |
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That was his cry for help. If someone had stepped up and talked to him for awhile he may have reconsidered. People really lack substance in their lives to watch this for 7 hours |
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@ dadiva:
I agree. I don't want to watch it, I value life and although people are saying he was weak, that may be so, but mental illness is very misunderstood. God only knows what this poor kid was dealing with, and all people are not alike so we don't know how his mind worked. The people that wished him dead will have this on their shoulders. I hope his family has the strength to continue, my condolences. |
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The headline should read: "Boy Cries Wolf One Too Many Times."
The sad fact is that CJ was a pathological liar. He faked overdosing many times before. He also, lied about winning the lottery, having a supermodel girlfriend, being homeless, hitchiking around the world, etc.
I for one didn't know CJ(Abraham) other than reading the threads he posted in the "Misc" section of the Bodybuilding.com forums, but from what I can surmise, he was a deeply disturbed young man.
He wanted to die, and he did...
I feel for his family and friends, but he got what he wanted. Nothing anyone watching could have said would have changed that.
The responsibility lies with his close friends and Family, not a couple other kids from an online bodybuilding forum.
It's sick to see everyone miss quoting the facts. Please learn the truth about the situation before you open your mouth.
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damn...
thats sad
people r evil |
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WOW. THAT'S REALLY SAD. BUT IM SURE THIS POOR GUY HAD PLENTY OF EMOTIONAL ISSUES GOING ON AND WAS MOST LIKELY AT THE EDGE ALREADY. PEOPLE DON'T REALIZE THAT THEY EXPECT TOO MUCH OUT OF LIFE. AND WHEN ALL THEIR HOPES AND DREAMS DON'T MATERIALIZE...THEY CAN'T HANDLE IT. THE SOONER A PERSON ACCEPTS THAT LIFE SUCKS AND THAT SOME PEOPLE ARE EXTREMELY LUCKY AND SOME OF US JUST ARE NOT.THE BETTER OFF THEY'LL BE. IT'S ALL ABOUT LEARING TO BE HAPPY WITHIN YOUR MISERY. |
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I agree with HandOfFate. This young man wasn't dealing with a full deck from jump street.
Anytime you announce to a MB you are considering suicide, set up a camera for others to watch and swallow pills while on camera tells you someting is seriously wrong with this person.
He got what he asked for whether by accident or not.
I feel sorry for the young man but you don't play with your life that way. |
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You know I've been thinking about this little guy all day. I feel so sorry for what he was going through. I can't help but cry when I watch this video.
For all the rude and crude comments on this story, please show some compassion. This world is made up of different people with different struggles. He was obviously hurting and crying out for help. So what if he was "weak-minded" everybody can't be as strong as you claim to be. Show some compassion.
My heart just goes out to this little kid. I really hate I watched this thing but when I see him I see a mother's child. This just brings you back to reality. Life is precious. Oh God, please take him. May his soul rest in peace. |
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^^^ I am so with you on this. This young man STAYED on my mind last night after watching this video, and my husband and I talked about it this afternoon. I too wonder if there had been just one person to show him an ounce of compassion, would he have reconsidered? For him to do this on Webcam was an obvious cry for help. He probably wanted SOMEBODY to care and to send someone to help him...but sadly nobody did.
For the person who said that he wanted to die, and he did, i.e., he "got what he asked for" IMO, that is utterly insensitive! What he may have really been "asking for" was help, and he may not have thought of it as "playing with his life". The fact that he may have commited hoaxs like this in the past is indeed a sign that he is someone who needed help. He was unhappy, and he was hurting. I cannot pretend to know his degree of pain, but I just wish someone could have been there for him in his hour of need. |
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How could anyone taunt someone to kill themselves? I just dont understand what kind of people would do such a thing. My heart goes out to his family. |
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Regardless if he lied, faked suicide etc it is obvious he was crying out for help. Everyone can't be strong willed so have a little compassion for the deceased. |
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What his family needs to realize is that it's not anyone's responsibility if they see him lying there breathing then they've done all they can especially if he threatened to do it before.
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That's sad. We must watch what we say on the internet because there are a lot of mental ill people in the world. |
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i mean seriously!! these goys have no shame!! suicide is no joke. what if it was one of their loved ones!! would they just sit and watch then? |
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LMAO @ StormZoe!!
Firrst off- it has nothing to do with you calling TYRA fat. You could have called a lot of people fat and I would have said something, because that is the frame of thinking that has many young black girls, (Tyra's size and smaller), sticking their fingers down their throats in an attempt to not be labeled "FAT" when indeed, they are average, or curvy- THATS why I jumped on your ass.
As for the poor young man who committed suicide- I am very sympathetic.....towards his family and friends whom have to suffer and feel huilty for years to come because of his selfish act. I feel bad for people who are vicitms are circumstance, not those whom impose the circumstances upon themselves.
That's like a serial killer/rapist going to jail and being constantly harassed/raped by his cellmates. You think Im going to be like, "awwwww, poor baby. I'm so sorry that they are doing this to you!!" Hell no!! You should not have did what you did in the first place, screw you, I'll save my sympathy for the victims.
And in this case, the young man who committed suicide is NOT the victim of anything but a senseless ploy to exact emotion and "pity-parties" from those around him.
I aint trying to be your friend, StormZoe, I'm just telling the truth and stating my opinion. IF it bothers you that bad, you can kill yourself. |
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they proly thought he was eatn some skittles or sum idk |
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GOD BLESS YOU!!
This is just so sad. I just wish that someone could have reached him in time and let him know that he was loved and needed in this world.
People are so sick. Why would you eg someone on like that? It breaks my heart that this has happened.
GOD BLESS YOU, BABY!!!!! |
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